apond08

Just a derailed train of thought...

Fri, 10 Apr 2009 03:23:20 GMT

So "that guy" and I went out again, pretty simple. It's our fourth time hanging out and it was a lot of fun. We had coffee at a cafe in town, drove around a little, smoked a bowl, and I did a little addy. Before the night ended we hooked up. So here's my confusion: I don't know if he and I are dating...I did ask him at one point "is there someone that's going to be upset that you and I are hooking up? like a girlfriend?" and he said no, but I'm wonder if that he only said that because we hadn't hooked up yet and he didn't to mess that up...

I've had a friend ask her guy friends, gay & straight, and their opinion is that I need to come out and ask him if we're dating. I just don't want to scare him off. The craziest thing is yes, of course, I want him to say we're dating, but I don't want to seem like a bitch if I say that we're not going to hook up anymore because we're not dating. What I'm looking for is a relationship, not a "special friend", basically. I'm also not the type of person who could start dating someone while still maintaining a relationship with a "special friend"--in my mind that wouldn't be right because for a person to be totally honest he/she should start a relationship the way they plan to maintain that relationship (i.e. with no "special friends"). *sigh* I suppose also that when I think special friend I think that the person is saying that I'm ok to hook up with, but not good enough to date/be in a relationship with...

Any thoughts/opinions are totally welcome, of course! :-) On a side note, going out with "that guy" is awesome because he never tries to get me to eat, lol. Like tonight notice: no food. I convinced my mom I had dinner with him and only ate a little dessert to really make her happy. Isn't it nice to finally find a win/win situation?

:-)

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 20:32:27 GMT

Finally, a good day! Last week turned out well with that guy--turns out he liked me very much and didn't hold it against me that we stood each other up at all, lol. Good times, etc. were had by all...

Anyway, today almost no one was in the office, so I just got to spend the entire lunch hour in the gym, sweet! So far I've had 150 net calories today (intake minus exercise). I figure there's no way my parents can make me eat more than 800 calories tonight, so I'm safe. In other news, I got to change desks (yay!) and I found out that I'm going to be stepping in as group coordinator/manager for my boss when he's out of the country at the end of the month! Never would have guessed he'd choose me, but I'm so excited anyway. He also hinted that I'll need to work some extra hours, which works great for me since my hours just got cut last week...

Missing the chance to see my rehab friends this weekend, but oh well. There'll be other times and one of my friends down here offered to let me play with his Wii fit! I sooo want one of those, even though I've never used one, lol. Maybe next time there's a rehab reunion (ie racous debauchery) I'll bring "that guy"...

Loser--thats me :-(

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 17:36:56 GMT

So there's this guy here at work that I really like, likes me, we kind of hooked up over drinks one night, etc. He asked me to go for a walk down to the beach with him this afternoon and I totally blew it by being late. There's no hope for me. Oh, and to top it all off, he made me eat a cookie when I came to his desk to apologize. What an awful day...so far...
FML.